Friday, May 15, 2026

Diamonds From Isaiah Chapter 2

Verse 4 

He will judge between the nations

    and will settle disputes for many peoples.

They will beat their swords into plowshares

    and their spears into pruning hooks.

Nation will not take up sword against nation,

    nor will they train for war anymore.

 

Dear Father, I pray for the day when you will bring peace between all nations, when people will no longer war against each other.

 

Verses 10-12

Go into the rocks, hide in the ground

    from the fearful presence of the Lord

    and the splendor of his majesty!

The eyes of the arrogant will be humbled

    and human pride brought low;

the Lord alone will be exalted in that day.

The Lord Almighty has a day in store

    for all the proud and lofty,

for all that is exalted

    (and they will be humbled),

 

Lord, I do not understand what all will happen. You are mighty, and everyone will know that you are mighty. The pride of all lofty people, of what they’ve created and worshiped, will be destroyed.

 

Verse 22

Stop trusting in mere humans,

    who have but a breath in their nostrils.

    Why hold them in esteem?

 

Father God, thank you for your love, that you call us to worship you and not to turn only to people, who in the end cannot satisfy us. 

Friday, May 8, 2026

I had never Been to Denver

So, a couple weeks ago, Murray, Ping-Hwei, and I went to visit Benjamin.

 

Until last fall, I hadn’t flown for a number of years. And the feeling I had from last fall was that I didn’t like it much. Especially the airports. Fast moving, hard to find where we need to be, need to hurry.

 

This time the first airport and the flight itself went pretty smoothly. I shouldn’t worry so much.

 

We touched down in Denver at 1:20 p.m.

 

Then, with walking through the airport, finally finding our luggage, looking for the shuttle to the rental cars, finally getting to the rental cars, and fighting with GPS to get to the other side of town, it was after 5:00 before we got to Benjamin’s.

 

Benjamin climbed in the car and said, “Well, I’m glad you made it here.”

 

I was so happy to see Benjamin. I hadn’t seen him since last May. He likes Boston brown bread that I make, so I’d been trying to get him some for eight months.

 

In September, when Murray went to help Benjamin move from Michigan to Denver, I sent some bread, but they forgot it in the Michigan apartment. For Benjamin’s birthday in December, we mailed him some, but the package took so long to get there, the bread was no longer edible.

 

So, when I said, “Benjamin, I brought you some Boston brown bread,” he said, “But?” The poor kid didn’t believe it could have got there successfully.

 

This time he got his bread.

 

Benjamin showed us some great restaurants over the weekend, some well-known, some local. Hamburgers, Mexican, pizza. All so yummy.

 

Benjamin suggested we go to a movie on Saturday, “Project Hail Mary,” and he told us the theater had audio description. That was great, devices with headphones for Benjamin and me, where a voice described what was happening besides the dialogue. This was a fast-paced science fiction movie, so even though it was hard to hear the commentator when the music and action got loud, it would have been impossible to understand the movie without it.

 

It was fun, an earthling on a spaceship, Dr. Grace, and he meets up with a being from another planet on another spaceship, Rocky. Rocky joins Dr. Grace on his spaceship, so they can work to solve the problem together. Once, something exciting happens, and Dr. Grace wants to give Rocky a hug. Hugging is new for Rocky, and he’s not sure how to do it, and he asks, “How do you know when the hug is done?” The rest of the weekend, I would hug Benjamin and say, “Let’s see if we can figure out when the hug is done.”

 

On Sunday, Murray wanted to go up Pikes Peak. Once we got to the bottom where we had to check in and pay, the man said we couldn’t go up all the way because of icy roads. He said we could still go up about two-thirds of the way if we wanted to. Sure, why not?

 

Murray and Ping-Hwei got some fun pictures. I kept telling Murray to tell me what he could see around us. Some grass and prairie. Lots of big rocks, some dirt, snow. For a while, he said there were some aspen trees, then only tall fir trees, until finally we got almost to the tree line after which trees couldn’t grow anymore.

 

That’s about where we had to stop because the road was closed. But it was fun, lots of very swervy hair-pin roads. I’d expected to be afraid of driving in those, but I wasn’t.

 

Monday, we decided to just stay at the hotel and play cards. It’s always fun to play games with Benjamin, but this time I couldn’t bring the Scrabble on the plane. We played many games of Uno and Spades. Benjamin won the Uno, and, surprisingly, I won Spades. Murray played a lot more aggressively than I did. He really didn’t want to lose.

 

Ping-Hwei didn’t play cards. He stayed in the room and took advantage of the 57-inch TV.

 

What a joy. So much fun to spend time with Benjamin. In October, we plan to visit Rebecca and Steve in Omaha. I’ve got a good chunk of time before I have to think about flying again. 

Friday, May 1, 2026

Dreams Are Funny Rerun

This first appeared on my blog on October 18, 2018. I still have dreams like this sometimes.

 

Time to take a shower. I opened the microwave door so I could climb in.

 

What? I couldn’t get in.

 

Head first. Nope. Feet first. I couldn’t fit.

 

What’s going on? This is how I always take a shower. I always fit comfortably inside the microwave with the door closed.

 

Frustrated, I gave up and went to the bathroom. Inside the tub; close the curtain. This was so uncomfortable for me.

 

I needed to find all my stuff and keep it organized. Shampoo. Razor. Where was my body wash? Other unhelpful bottles kept falling off the shelves around the tub.

 

I could never get the water pressure right. Why wouldn’t the stream point the direction I wanted?

 

Family members kept coming into the bathroom—hurrying me up; saying I better leave their bath supplies alone. Can’t I have a little peace and privacy?

 

Worst of all? I finally got to washing myself, and I’d find a piece of clothing I’d forgotten to take off. Pull it off. Throw it over the shower curtain. Wash off . . . There’s another garment I have to remove.

 

No wonder I wake up so many mornings feeling like I’ve got no rest. 

Friday, April 24, 2026

Guest Author, Sherry Shindelar

 

Sherry Shindelar is an excellent author and one of my critique partners. I deeply appreciated this story.

 

 

The Hidden Civil War: Breaking the Chains of Addiction

 


Texas Reclaimed is a story of victory, redemption, and the rebirth of trust. It is a story of courage and of freedom from the chains of the past and the chains of addiction. It is a story that honors the Civil War soldiers who survived their wounds, only to return home to fight another battle: dependency on the opioid-based medicines that had helped save their lives.


I first heard of laudanum when I watched the movie Amazing Grace about William Wilberforce’s eighteen-year battle to end the slave trade in Great Britain. Wilberforce played a pivotal role in ending the slave trade and eventually slavery itself in Britain by speaking, campaigning, and introducing bills into the British parliament. However, Wilberforce was also addicted to laudanum, a tincture of opium. 

 


It wasn’t his intention to become dependent upon a drug. A doctor prescribed it to him when he was twenty-nine years old for ulcerative colitis and other health ailments. Laudanum was used to treat a number of health issues and ailments in the 18th and 19th centuries, and no one, including doctors, had much understanding about addiction and dependency. The word addiction didn’t even exist as we use it today. But the soul-deep struggle was very real for too many people, even a man of faith like Wilberforce.

Addiction is pernicious, and laudanum took its toll on Wilberforce. He suffered physically, mentally, and spiritually from its poisonous effects.

Years later, I learned that even some of the nineteenth-century authors that I admire, such as Louisa May Alcott and Elizabeth Barrett Browning, struggled with laudanum dependency, as well.

In the nineteenth century, doctors and the public viewed opium, in its various forms, as an essential medical tool. Hundreds of thousands of soldiers were wounded in the American Civil War, and many more suffered from debilitating and potentially life-threatening illnesses. A Civil War medical manual, quoted in Dr. Jonathan Jones’s Opium Slavery, states that opiates were as “important to the surgeon as gunpowder to the ordinance [military weapons].” 

Unfortunately, the medicine that saved their lives, too often, enslaved them for years after the war. According to Dr. Jones, “Veterans, their families, and communities struggled to cope with addiction’s health and social consequences, which included much victim-blaming that compounded suffering unnecessarily.” Too often, society’s reaction hindered instead of helped the men’s recovery.

 

My heart went out to Wilberforce, the tens of thousands of soldiers, and others enslaved to laudanum or other substances through no fault of their own. For many, once infected, it could be a lifelong battle, one that many did not win on their own.  But there were victories.

And I love to write about soul-deep struggles and victories.

My hero, Ben McKenzie, is a Federal Cavalry captain captured and imprisoned in the notorious Andersonville Prison Camp. He barely survives the harsh conditions of the camp. His best friend, Jeb Scott, does not. Ben makes a deathbed promise to his friend that he will look after Jeb’s mother and sister who live in Texas.

Ben aims to keep that promise, but the medical treatment that he receives after his release from prison camp leaves him dependent upon laudanum. My story starts a year later. Ben determines to break the chains that are eating away at his self-respect. He throws away his bottle of medicine and heads to Texas to keep his promise.

I asked a friend of mine about his own deliverance from addiction. He had this to say, “It was a lifetime ago, my addiction was strong, but my pain was stronger. I’ve lost so much in my life, but then I found that God’s love was deep, and He was even bigger to forgive. Out of His mercy He set me free, and through His grace He healed me from my past.”-Rev. Mark Little Elk

That is my prayer for all of those who struggle. And I look forward to sharing Ben McKenzie’s story with you in Texas Reclaimed.

 

Amazon link for Texas Reclaimed:

https://www.amazon.com/Texas-Reclaimed-Lone-Star-Redemption-ebook/dp/B0FX5YK964

 


https://sherryshindelar.com/

Friday, April 17, 2026

Psalm 31:12-24: God Hears Us

A Psalm of David

I am forgotten as though I were dead; I have become like broken pottery.

For I hear many whispering, “Terror on every side!”

They conspire against me and plot to take my life.

But I trust in you, Lord; I say, “You are my God.”

My times are in your hands; deliver me from the hands of my enemies,

from those who pursue me.

Let your face shine on your servant; save me in your unfailing love.

Let me not be put to shame, Lord, for I have cried out to you;

but let the wicked be put to shame and be silent in the realm of the dead.

Let their lying lips be silenced, for with pride and contempt they speak arrogantly against the righteous.

How abundant are the good things that you have stored up for those who fear you,

that you bestow in the sight of all, on those who take refuge in you.

In the shelter of your presence you hide them from all human intrigues;

you keep them safe in your dwelling from accusing tongues.

Praise be to the Lord, for he showed me the wonders of his love

when I was in a city under siege.

In my alarm I said, “I am cut off from your sight!”

Yet you heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help.

Love the Lord, all his faithful people!

    The Lord preserves those who are true to him, but the proud he pays back in full.

Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord.

 

Father, you know the pain and suffering that we go through, the horrors that attack us. You hear us cry to you from the farthest, darkest place. Help us, Lord, to learn to trust you better; to know that you have such good plans for those who call to you. 

Friday, April 10, 2026

For the Joy Set Before Him

I like to study on Good Friday what Jesus did for me. I read from Isaiah the sadness and horror he suffered:

 

Isaiah 53:3-7:

He was despised and rejected by mankind,

    a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.

Like one from whom people hide their faces

    he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.

Surely he took up our pain

    and bore our suffering,

yet we considered him punished by God,

    stricken by him, and afflicted.

But he was pierced for our transgressions,

    he was crushed for our iniquities;

the punishment that brought us peace was on him,

    and by his wounds we are healed.

We all, like sheep, have gone astray,

    each of us has turned to our own way;

and the Lord has laid on him

    the iniquity of us all.

He was oppressed and afflicted,

    yet he did not open his mouth;

he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,

    and as a sheep before its shearers is silent,

    so he did not open his mouth.

 

Jesus didn’t protest. He knew that through his punishment, we would have peace. We would be healed. We were the joy set before him.

 

Hebrews 12:2:

fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

 

Thank you, Jesus, for clinging to the joy set before you. Thank you for the joy we can cling to today.

 

Romans 5:10:

For if, while we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life!

 

John 5:24:

“I tell you the truth, those who listen to my message and believe in God who sent me have eternal life. They will never be condemned for their sins, but they have already passed from death into life.

 

1 John 2:1-2:

My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have an advocate with the Father—Jesus Christ, the Righteous One. He is the atoning sacrifice for our sins, and not only for ours but also for the sins of the whole world.

 

Romans 8:34:

Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us.

 

Hebrews 1:3:

The Son is the radiance of God’s glory and the exact representation of his being, sustaining all things by his powerful word. After he had provided purification for sins, he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty in heaven.

 

Jesus, you live to save and intercede for us. You are our radiant glory. 

Friday, April 3, 2026

He Briefly Thought Of Home

I was given permission to share this precious writing by an excellent young author.

 

 

He Briefly Thought Of Home

By Rylie Demers

 

He was born beneath a sky that seemed to tremble.
 The stars glimmered like distant lanterns, as if heaven itself leaned down to see.
 His mother held him close, whispering old prayers into the night air. Her hands shook, not from cold, but from the weight of the small miracle she cradled.
 The world was quiet except for the sound of breathing; Hers, his, and the wind slipping softly through the cracks of the stable.

He grew slowly, the way light spreads across the morning.
 He was gentle, the kind of child who spoke to animals and believed the wind could hear him.
 He liked the smell of bread baking, the warmth of sunlight on the floor, the sound of his mother humming while she worked.
 When storms came, he ran outside to meet them, laughing, his hair plastered to his face.
 When he returned drenched and smiling, she would scold him softly, drying him with her shawl.
 “You feel too much,” she would say. “Even the rain finds a home in you.”
 He would only smile, eyes wide, as if feeling were the greatest gift of all.

He followed his father into the workshop, where the air was thick with the scent of sawdust and cedar.
 There he learned patience.
 He learned to smooth roughness, to fit the crooked back into place, to make broken things whole again.
 His father’s laughter filled the room, deep and kind.
 When he taught the boy how to plane wood, he said, “Creation listens to the heart that shapes it.”
 The boy listened. Always.

When his father died, silence moved into the house like a shadow.
 The tools hung untouched.
 The wood waited.
 But one morning, his mother found him there, shaping a block of cedar as the dawn spilled through the window.
 Her tears fell quietly.
 “You have his hands,” she whispered. “And his love.”

Years blurred.
 He became a man with shoulders like his father’s and eyes like his mother’s; Gentle, searching, always carrying something sacred and unseen.
 He built tables where families shared bread.
 He repaired broken doors, carved cradles for new life, built chairs for the weary.
 His work carried warmth.
 Each piece held a trace of him, something soft, like love that had soaked into the grain.

He never turned anyone away.
 A widow who could not pay, a child whose toy had broken, he gave, and gave, and gave again.
 When asked why, he only said,

 “Because the world is heavy enough. Let what I make lighten it.”

In his late years, the world began to stir around him.
 He left his home and took to the road, walking with the kind of certainty that comes from sorrow and hope mixed together.
 He found others, men who were lost to the world.
 Fishermen, a tax collector, a zealot, a skeptic.
 He called them friends. They were human, but so was he.

He tired. He hungered. He laughed until tears filled his eyes.
 He missed home.
 He loved them not for who they were, but for what they could be. He saw them as God saw them. He saw what they were supposed to be, before the fall of humanity.

They argued and misunderstood him.
 They wanted miracles while he wanted their hearts.
 They failed him again and again, and he forgave them before they even realized their faults.
 When they fell asleep during prayers, he smiled.
 When they panicked in storms, he reached out his hand and steadied them.

They did not know what he truly was.
 They only knew that when he was near, they felt lighter, as if something inside them remembered how to breathe.

Sometimes, when they slept, he sat awake, looking at the stars.
 He thought of his mother.
 He thought of his father’s laughter in the workshop.
 He thought of home, the smell of cedar and oil, the sound of his mother’s voice saying his name as though it were a prayer.
 He missed it more than he could ever say.

Then came the night the world turned.
 He prayed beneath the trees until his tears burned, and his heart broke under the weight of what he knew must come.
 His friends slept nearby, too tired to keep watch.
 He loved them still.
 Even when one betrayed him with a kiss, he called him “friend.”

The dawn that followed felt hollow.
 They dragged him through the streets while the sky grew heavy and gray.
 He said nothing.
 He had always been gentle with words.

And then, they brought it to him.

The cross.

Two rough beams of wood, freshly cut, raw, splintered, smelling of earth and sap.
 He looked at it and felt his chest tighten.
 The scent rose up around him, and suddenly, the noise faded.
 He was back in the workshop.
 His father was beside him, smiling softly.
 His mother was calling him in for supper.
 The air smelled the same, wood, dust, and warmth.
 He thought of laughter, of bread, of the clumsy arguments of his friends.
 He thought of every table he had built, every cradle, every door.
 Every life he had touched.

He reached out and touched the beam.
 The grain bit his skin.
 The smell filled his lungs.
 Home.
 He looked at it not as a prisoner, but as a carpenter. His eyes, even through the haze of pain, traced the wood, the knots, the rough edges. The corners were jagged, the joinery careless. It was built in haste, without tenderness, without respect for the living tree it once was.

His fingers twitched with the old instinct, to sand it smoother, to balance the weight, to bring out the beauty hidden in the wood. But this was not a creation meant for beauty. This was a weapon made of what he once loved.

The beam’s surface was cruel beneath his touch, biting at his skin like thorns. He knew the type of wood by scent alone.
 He had worked with it countless times before.
 Once, he had used it to craft cradles and tables, things that held life.
 Now it would hold death.

He thought, This is not good work.
 And the thought broke him more than the pain did.

Because he could see what it could have been, the symmetry, the balance, the grace in the design, and for a moment, he almost wanted to fix it.
 Old habits die slow.
 Love for creation does not vanish, even when creation turns against you.

 

They lifted it onto his shoulders, and he fell beneath its weight.
 But he rose again.
 He always rose.

Through the blur of pain, he saw her, his mother, standing in the crowd.
 Her eyes wide, her lips trembling, her hands pressed to her chest.
 For a moment, he was her little boy again, running home in the rain.
 And she was still calling him back inside.

He took another step.
 And another.
 Each fall drove splinters deeper.
 Each rise brought back the scent of the wood, the same scent that had once meant creation, not destruction.

When they fastened him to it, he breathed in that scent again.
 Wood. Earth. Home.
 He thought of his father’s hands guiding his own.
 He thought of his mother’s shawl drying his hair.
 He thought of his friends laughing beside a fire, too human to be holy and too beloved to be lost.

And even as the world darkened, even as breath left him slowly, he still felt love, for all of them, for everything.
 Because love, once made flesh, does not die.
 It lingers in the grain, in the breath, in the air.

He breathed in the scent one last time.
 He thought of home.
 He thought of mercy.
 He thought of the way wood smells before it becomes something new.

And as the sky split open and silence filled the world,
 he whispered forgiveness, not as a command, but as a promise.

Because even a cross, to a carpenter,
 still smells like wood.

And for one last, trembling heartbeat,

 he thought of home.