James 1:17: Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
From September, 1990 to June, 1997, God showered me with amazing gifts: Rebecca, Sarah, Caleb, Ping-Hwei, and Benjamin.
In those years and in the years since, I found my identity. I am a mom.
God entrusted me with an incredible ministry, and my children needed me.
Of course, there were ups and downs and twists. And mistakes. But what I remember the most was the sense of something so valuable; the joy; the fun.
My kids are all adults now. Benjamin, the youngest, is nineteen. They’re not looking for a mommy anymore. I need to find a new identity to focus on.
Sometimes this is a daily struggle. I have to repeat to myself:
Let them go.
Let them make their own decisions.
Let them have a life apart from me.
But God is with me, teaching me, reminding me, giving me the strength I need for this new journey.
I will always be their mom. That is a precious and special relationship which God has given us. And, gifts as always, I have these amazing people as an important part of my life.
Benjamin is turning into an interesting young man in front of my eyes. Thoughtful, considerate, a dry sense of humor. He makes me smile.
Sarah is hilarious. Her laugh rings like gold. Her mind has an on-going, infinite supply of fascinating thoughts.
Rebecca is a respected professional. She is brave and has established herself as an active part of her community.
Caleb is a kind, gentle man. He loves the Bible and exhibits a delightful, quiet humor. He makes friends easily and has many interests and dreams in his life.
Ping-Hwei is so funny. He loves to do practical jokes, and he laughs all the time. He is a hard worker and so much help around our home and to our family.
I am rich with these gifts.