Friday, December 1, 2017

Beautiful Memory



Our daughter Rebecca is coming home for Christmas. As I was thinking about this the other night, I was reminded of one of my most beautiful memories about Rebecca. Not when she was a snappy, surprising little girl, but seven or so years ago, when she would have been around twenty.

Rebecca had an appointment downtown for something, so she came to my office to go home with me and the friend who always gave me a ride.

Something happened at work that day that badly upset me. I don’t remember what now, but I know I was in tears at the end of the day. As Rebecca and I walked across the parking lot I told her, “I’m not going to be able to stop crying.”

As soon as we got in the car, I turned my face to the window, and Rebecca became a chatterbox. Not her normal style. For half an hour or so, she talked non-stop (I have no idea about what) and saved me from having to talk and embarrass myself any more than I already was.

When we got home and climbed onto the porch, Rebecca stopped to check the mailbox, and I hugged her to thank her. I sat on the porch swing, still shaken, and Rebecca planted herself in my lap, also not her normal style at that age. But she showed me she cared about me and that she was standing by me.

Friday, November 24, 2017

Thank You Jesus A to Z


During our pre-Thanksgiving service at church this week, we all joined together multiple times to say, “Thank you, Jesus.”

 

Our minister mentioned driving with his daughter and going through the alphabet, thanking God for items which started with each letter.

 

I decided to take that as a challenge this week.

 

A: Anniversary. Murray and I have been married thirty years as of this past August 27.

 

B: Benjamin, my precious child.

 

C: Caleb, my sweet child.

 

D: I thank God for the gift of Caleb’s dog guide Esther, who lived with us for ten and a half years. She was my buddy and always made me smile.

 

E: Esther cat. A special friend who lived with me sixteen years.

 

F: family, my mother, Lila Mae Brinkmann; my brothers, Rodney, Roger and Jim Brinkmann.

 

G: for God, the father who loves me far beyond anything I can imagine.

 

H: For all the happy days God gives me.

 

I: Ice cream. And cake, and cookies, and candy …

 

J: Jesus, my Lord and Savior.

 

K: All the kind people God brings into my life.

 

L: Laughter.

 

M: Murray, my treasure husband.

 

N: For my name. I like the name Kathleen/Kathy.

 

O: For getting older. I thank God for the growth I sometimes see in myself as I grow older.

 

P: Ping-Hwei, my beloved child.

 

Q: Questions. I’m grateful that God allows me to ask him questions and is willing to reason with me.(Isaiah 1:18)

 

R: Rebecca, my lovely child.

 

S: Sarah, my wonderful child.

 

T: Telephones. Whether house phones, flip phones, smart phones, or IPhones, that I can keep in touch with the people I love who do not live near me.

 

U: Ukuleles.

 

V: Vegetables. I’m an equal opportunity eater.

 

W: For writing, the work I love.

 

X: X-rays, very useful.

 

Y: Yarn. So I can knit and crochet.

 

Z: For the zipper on my coat; so warm.

Friday, November 17, 2017

Sweet Memories, Sharp Little Kids



December 29, 1994: We went to a restaurant tonight, and Sarah had some ice cream. She was complaining that it was too cold. The waitress came and asked if everything was okay. We said yes, butSarah said, "Not this ice cream; it's cold."

December 31, 1994: It snowed this morning, and although we had snow in Arkansas and Alabama, it's the first time the kids could really appreciate it. Rebecca said as she ran back and forth between windows, "It's really snowing, it's very great! It's snowing so muchI can't see the sky!" (We lived in Kansas at this point, much more snow.)

January 2, 1995: The kids were in bed in the living room tonight andRebecca said to Caleb, "Caleb, if you lay still and be so quiet, youreyes will close all by themselves, and you'll be asleep."

January 3, 1995: This morning Sarah told me that her heart was beeping while shewas asleep.

January 4, 1995: Yesterday for her birthday, Sarah got a new baby doll from Morgan. (Murray’s brother, who was living with us.) Just now she said, "I want to take my baby doll to Heaven."

Caleb had a picnic at school today, inside, since it was about15 degrees outside at the most. I asked what they had, and he said hotdogs, and juice, and then he said, "Those little square things,they were goofy, they were s'mores."

January 6, 1995: This afternoon I was trying to lay the kids down for a nap. I gave Sarah her new quilt from Grandma Brinkmann, and asked if she liked it, and she said yes. I asked if she wanted me to cover her up. She doesn't like to be covered up much. She said, "If I say no, will that hurt herfeelings?" (Referring to Grandma)   

Sarah got a bucket full of dinosaurs for her birthday. Also in the bucket are some cave-men or something with clubs. The kids take those out of the bucket and put them somewhere else when they play. They don't like them, because, as Rebecca says, "They have bad faces."

The other day I told Sarah that she used to tell me secrets like this. Then I whispered in her ear, "I love you." Then I asked if she would tell me a secret. She whispered, "Tomorrow we're gonnahave doughnuts."

Yesterday Rebecca said Sarah could wear some of her stick-onearrings to church today. Sarah said it was because "I'm growing uplike Rebecca."

January 13, 1995: This afternoon Rebecca put Rhoda (our cat) out the deck door, then she said to me, "Mommy, Rhoda chased a squirrel!" She sounded really disturbed. I tried to explain that that was just what animals did, but she said, "That wasn't nice. The squirrel didn'tlike it. The squirrel was littler than Rhoda."

January 14, 1995: Last night Renato (our exchange student from Brazil) and Morgan cooked supper, and they made mashed potatoes the way Renato's Mom makes them, with heavy cream. At supper, Rebecca asked, "Mommy, why do the mashed potatoes taste so good today?" I guess I won't be making any mashed potatoesfor a while.

January 15, 1995: Tonight there was a party at church. Rebecca said she wanted to get a cookie to take home. Murray got one for her, and she took a bite. Then he got two more. She asked if he was gettingmore for her, and he said, no, one for each of the kids. She thoughtabout it, then said, "I took a bite out of Sarah's."

January 17, 1995: Sarah and I were talking about something this afternoon, and I said, "Don't you have a goofy Mommy?" She said, "FunMommy. We can play with her."

January 19, 1995: The other day Rebecca wanted Murray to do something, and he said, "What's the magic word?" She said, "Monkeys," so of course, that's the new magic word in our home.

January 29, 1995: Tonight in church we were singing something, probably some kind of praise song to Jesus, and Rebecca said to me,"Mom, Jesus is the bestest."

February 5, 1995: This afternoon Caleb told me, "Mommy, I need to do you a favor." I asked what he needed to do for me. He said, "Snapmy pants and tuck in my shirt."

February 18, 1995: Wow! It's not even eight-thirty in the morning yet, and the kids are already really sharp. They were talking abouta man at church who has a wheelchair. I told Caleb that the chair was a tool the man uses to get around, just like Caleb's cane is atool to help him. Sarah asked what Grandma used to get around, andRebecca said a tractor. One of the girls asked if that was a tool, and I said yes. Caleb said, "Weelll, that's a vehicle."

February 23, 1995: We sing a song that goes, "Some of them were singing, and some of them were dancing, but all of them were worshiping the Lord." Yesterday Rebecca sang, "Some of them were singing, and some of them were dancing, and some of them were reading the Bible, and some of them were praying, but all of them wereworshiping the Lord."

Thursday, November 9, 2017

Grace and Truth, John 5:1-15



Jesus heals a man waiting for the troubling of the pool, which is said to have healing powers. Jesus has compassion for him, though the man gives no indication that he will choose to follow Jesus. Instead the man goes to inform the leaders it was Jesus who broke their law.

But Jesus still showers grace on the man—both giving him health and telling him how to prevent even worse trouble for his life and soul.

Thank you, Lord, for how you love me in ways I don’t even know. Help me to thank you more.